a rose is still a rose

i'm a loner i know this. i've been a loner since i was a young girl. and relized that no one could be trusted. plus i just don't fit in anywhere.

i'm not black, i stopped getting perms, doesn't make me feel any blacker, but i like the curls so i keep it. i'm not gay, in my old youth group no one wanted to be friends with the bi-sexual, so the few of us stuck together only held together by that fact. i'm not a gamer, i play video and computer games but its not my whole life. i not smart, i know things but i'm no A student, i'll never go to smart kid camp.

I don't know i think i do better by my self. i get more work done, i know that my ideas are always the best. and then someone comes along and tries to help and its like nothing i've done is right.

I thought that i wanted friends, that maybe thats what i'm missing in my life. so i tried to make friends. i have people that know my name and i know theirs .but i never close with any of them.

Toby is the only person who i feel like i could be around forever. and sometimes i try to push him away to. i dont know whats with me.

sorry i'm just having a down day.

sweetie

fitness: I brought a new ball that is the right size for me and five pound weights

I worked out at 10pm tonight

20minutes 1 mile
lunges with weights
squats with weights
crunches 10
crunches 5 on each side
side steps
double curls 10
bicep curls 10
front wieght raise


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knitting: the bear didnt turn out to well. So now its an alien hand puppet.
my mother got the purse and every thing and liked it alot.
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life:I think we might get a car soon
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Happy valentines day




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I baked cookies for my sweet. this is from a cookie cutter pack

sugar cookies
3/4 cup butter 1 cup sugar 2 eggs (egg replacer)
1 tsp vanilla 2 1/2 cupall-purpose flour 1 tsp baking powder
1 tsp salt

Mix butter,sugar,eggs, and vanilla thoughly. Measure flour.stir flour, baking powder and salt together. blend all ingredients together and chill covered for 1 hour.

heat oven to 400. Roll dought to 1/8" thickness on lightly floured surface. cut with cookie cutters and place on ungreased baking sheet. bake 6 to8 minutes or until cookies are light goledern in color.will make about 4 dozen cookies.

Frosting
3/4 cup powdered sugar 1/2 tsp vanilla 1/4 tsp lemon juice 1 tbsp milk 1tbsp butter (melted)

Mix all together.add food coloring (sprinkles for me). will frost 2 dozen cookies


they were great